Ugh...

I can`t stand feeling full. Makes me HAVE to purge. Feeling full is the worst *physical* feeling EVER.
I am so goddamn fucking FAT..

Well..

So, keeping you up to date, I am now seeing a nutritionist, who gave me a mealplan, so I get all the right portions of the right food groups & eat healthy 'maintaining my weight'. I know, I need to lose weight cuz I`m such a fat ass, but I`m not able to purge atm. I weigh 120. Ew. Anyway, the upside of this mealplan is that I finally get full so I`m not bingeing anymore, & I don`t crave sweets all the time. So I`m probably not gonna gain any more weight, thank the nonexistent god.