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Going to spend the night at my friends house tonight for her Birthday. =] So i can get out of eating dinner which is good. I ate grits, halfva piece of cantaloupe, pinto beans, fried ocra, & macaroni. That was wayyyyyy too much. My grandma's goal in life is to make me so fucking fat. But thankfully i am making progress; the tops of my pants are getting looser. Despite their efforts at making me eat alot are failing. I'm doing the best i can to under eat & exercise: doing crunches, riding my bike, doing planks, & other things like that before & after every meal. [Exercising right before eating speeds up your metabolism, hehe.]
So at 6 i'm going to Olive Garden with my friends. My parents gave me money for food so i'll just hide it so they think i spent it. Then i can sAy when i get home tomorrow that i had breakfast at my friends house so i'll only have to eat lunch & dinner thank god. Ugh. I am so hungry but if it wasn't for my family i would starve mysfelf to death. I'm VERY inspired to starve so i can lose weight. Cuz compared to other anorexics i look like a fucking whale! I've got to change that. I swear i will, one day.<3