Ugh

I'm still the same weight. I have been thinking about completely giving up today and binging. But I need to hold myself accountable. When I say I'm going to get skinny, I MEAN it. I'm not gonna be some fake ass hypocrite who says, "Yeah, I have an eating disorder" but eats all the fucking time. Fuck that.
I got some candy from my grandma today. I plan on chewing and spitting tonight. That's the closest I'll get to binging. Mind you, if I could, I WOULD binge, but I'm afraid I won't get the chance to purge afterward. Either that or I wouldn't get to purge it all. So chewing and spitting it is, then.
I can't wait. I have been craving chocolate for so long. I'll have to sneak up here tonight with a couple of ziplock bags so I can spit in them and throw them away. Easy. Gah, I really can't wait. I'm fucking starving.
Ate maybe 40 to 45 calories of yogurt this morning, and that's it. Going to have veggie chips for dinner, which is 150. That'll be it for today. I don't care if I get bitched at for my parents. I'm fat and no one is going to convince me different. I need to lose weight.