13.7.13

Well then

I'm not going to be posting on this blog anymore. I've decided to give recovery another shot, this time without having to go back to treatment. I still would kill to be as skinny as I used to be, but have to keep reminding myself that there is more to life than being thin, and waiting for the number on the scale to be low enough. ED is full of SHIT. My friend from treatment, HER friend from treatment ended up dying today from her own eating disorder. I don't want anyone to have to deal with losing me thanks to my starving & puking. Fuck ED. I don't need my eating disorder to define who I am anymore. I doubt anyone's reading this blog anyway, but if you are then you need to get help now before you let ED take over your life. I'm not letting it take over mine any more. Not ever again. I know I'll end up relapsing eventually, that is inevitable. But I don't have to let a relapse cause me to go back to treatment, or even worse, die. I'm ready to move on with my life. I have college to attend to, I need to learn how to drive, I need to work on getting a real life for myself.

Best of luck to everyone else out there is trying to recover. <3

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