Happy?

I really feel like a new, different, better person now. I no longer want to look emaciated. I don't find that attractive anymore. Of course, there still is that sick part in my brain that gets uber jealous when I see anorexic girls. But to be honest, the bigger better part of me finds curves to be attractive, now. And that makes me so HAPPY! I am starting to feel actually comfortable in my own body now. My arms are still slender, I wear a size 6 in jeans, but that's alright since I'm 5'10". I think my metabolism is speeding up again, and I'm eating pretty much whatever I want. No starving, binging, or purging anymore. Some days I may eat a little too much carbs or some shit, but that's fucking normal! Fuck my nutritionist if she doesn't agree. I am NOT eating too much, period. I'm eating normally, healthily, like any other non-disordered girl out there.
I don't need to be skinny anymore to like my body. To tell the truth, I'm pretty damn happy with my body, now. Which is just fucking awesome. It is amazing to be able to feel comfortable in my own skin, after years and years thinking I was too bony growing up, or too fat (in my anorexic years).
But SERIOUSLY seeing my body as just FINE all started when I began listening to Hanzel und Gretyl and saw Vas Kallas up on that stage in youtube performances. Never had I ever thought that a curvy woman could be attractive until I saw her. I have no CLUE why it suddenly changed then but I am glad it did! NEED to start embracing myself with positive body images.
It just feels so great to have a normally functioning body now and positive thoughts. Now I just need to start making new friends...but that is like the hardest thing for me to do (in person). :/
Hopefully some day I will begin to feel comfortable around other people. But if I'm not today, then I have the rest of my life to practice.